Ok…so it’s going to be a BIG nutshell. LOL
‘Ello all…
I thought I’d take some time today to give some feedback to this year and possibly the coming year.
This year began with some me being disgruntled over my gaming life. There was some Epic guild drama, I moved to a new server, then…after a few months I finally let it go. Yes this WoW-a-holic gave up the game.
In its place I found other things to do. I found reading to be very enjoyable. I read the Dresden Files by Jim Butcher, twice. Yes you read that right twice in one year. I had gone through all 13 books and when Nox started reading them I wanted to sort of keep up…instead I flew in front of him and passed him by. I read 5 of Jim’s wife’s books Shannon Butcher has a series out too – those were fun but not Dresden. Then I moved to Laurell K. Hamilton Merry Gentry Series. I read all 8 of those and then moved into her Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Series, currently I’m on the 11th one and going to try to get through all of those. I read one of the Dexter books and several self help books. They have all been entertaining.
Around April I started playing in Stained Glass. It has been awesome. There’s really no words to describe it but at the end of the day or the end of my life I can point at something and simply say, “I made that”. This world consumed many hours/days/weeks worth of creating, cutting, grinding, foiling, soldering, and finding it a home. Some projects took 4 hours others took 4 weeks. If you want to seem more head over to http://lightfromthedivine.com I am hoping to update that site some today too.
With all of those things, I started playing Farmville again. O…M…G… I am so tired of it. I will be blocking it soon. I’m done. There is no joy and it’s not only feeding an obsession it’s also just not doing it for me again. So…I am giving it up too. LOL.
Things I have loved about this year: Going to the pub with my husband, my best friend, and my daughters when they came to town. I loved getting out and socializing with folks. I had forgotten what it was like to live without a schedule and just to do whatever it was I wanted to do. It has been great. I loved having folks come to my home for just socializing or actually having a cook out. And a minor note, even though I went back to smoking early this year…I rarely, if ever smoke in the house, a full year of going outside in all sorts of weather. It has caused me to smoke less but hey, that’s not a bad thing.
Some things I missed this year. I missed this (points around her) blogging. I missed it a lot. Not sure why I haven’t been doing more of it. I think it has more to do with the fact that I have let other things fill my card up. Well…no more. I think this will be the place to vent, throw things out there from time to time and to just write again. I do love it so…I might not ever be a Laurell Hamilton but this is good enough.
Other things I missed: I know that friends are not necessarily just those folks that I interact with on FB and in game…but damn it, they became friends. I miss the Cristus, the Hollys, the Ajaxx, the Asmod and the Kimbers. Several others too…that list is fairly long.
Hell I even miss the Alas and Atar…they’ll never read this…but it’s there. I have missed some of the things they brought to my life. And since I know they’ll never read this, I’ll add this. I gave up the game because I felt like Alas had set such rules and regulations on my life that I gave up a part of myself to live up to some sort of life for her. In the end, I only hurt myself and it really had nothing to do with her as much as it did me. I trusted her and gave her a part of me that I thought would be guarded and cared for but in the end… No one can tell you how to live your life or what you should do. If you let them, then shame on you. I think I have let it go finally, I think I have finally moved to a place of forgiveness, to her and to me. I think I see where things went wrong with the whole process and just made a vow to myself to never let it happen again.
SO, with all of the past years stuff…Let’s see what 2012 holds for me.
My very first plan of action starting probably this weekend is to start working out. No less than 5 minutes and up to whatever I feel like. I hope to add some time to meditate again. I really have missed doing that too. I still want to continue to get out and go to the pub maybe add a few sites of Missouri in there too. I hope to see my kids this year.
And we (husband and I) are seriously considering playing Star Wars: The Old Republic. There is the fear that we will let ourselves get sucked in as we did with war ”crack” but I am hoping to put some measure of will power that’ll keep us from playing all the time and still embrace our creative sides.
With our tax money if there is enough, I am hoping to get two new laptops and new glasses for both of us.
They are all little things that I want to see for the New Year. I hope that I can keep my word to myself and follow through. I know that the brain/mind wants to, I just hope the rest of me can do it. I hope to also post more here and not just about in game stuff if we do start playing Star Wars.
To each and all, I hope that 2012 comes in with grace and ease. I hope that you can make some gentle changes that are good for you and move forward with spiritual growth. May the best day of 2011 be the worst day for 2012.
Namaste
Jinx
. And tomorrow I get to pick up my saw for those awesome cuts. Win!!
